get to know you

You know those "get to know you" meetings? Well I decided I don't like them because,
1. If I trust a person and tell them stuff, I feel like I'm tearing down the walls I put up.
2. I'm affraid to let people in (remember the blog post about weaknesses and trust issues)

on the bright side if I do end up deciding to move to BYU-I to become a equine vet I can meet some cute cowboys with horses (which hopefully I could get to ride). :-)

On the Down side chemistry homework is getting hard.

great call of awakening

So today I lost my phone in the BNSN building on campus, and I know someone has it because,
1. the triangulation of location keep changing
2. they won't answer

and I also know that tomorrow between say 4-6 thy're going have some nice loud phone alarms go off really loud. like 4-7 of them. So Yeah. that's what they get for taking my phone and not calling and giving it back. just saying.

maybe major?

I think I did a post a couple posts back about horses. I've been looking into it (and with my visit to the counseling/advisement center) one of the options suggested was a vet. did you know you can become and equine vet? like specialize in horses, and in equine neurology? yeah I didn't know that. the problem would be - I would be in school probably 11 years. which means I would have a MD by the time in 28. which isn't too shabby considering most R.M.'s or people in general don't know what they want to do or are just out of college because they want more then a masters. The even worse news would be in order to still have gospel integreted in my classes Id have to go to BYU I. which means I would miss all of the soccer games. I mean I could still watch them on BYU tv. But nothing beats actually being at the game. I don't know what to do in /with my life...
Any Suggestions?

three years

It's been three years since my friend Jordan died. I miss his face, his faith, his example, his friendship, his Christlike love, our late night talks, his optimistic perspective, I miss everything about him. He was a such a great person. He changed my life so much, I couldn't think of where I would be today if I hadn't met him. I know he watches over me, and his family, and friends. Thanks for living so I could met you. Thanks for fighting. Thanks for letting me trust you, for letting me let you in, for always being there for me, for always involving the gospel in life, for letting me let my guard down, for being patient, for not judging me. I can't wait to see you again.

The girls humming Come thou fount of every blessing across from me reminds me of our hymn singing parties.  Thanks for teaching me for a distance. I still have a lot to learn. Thanks for never giving up on helping me iron out the wrinkles with my dad. Like this morning when we didn't fight when I locked the keys in the car and he had to bring them to me, and he was happy to do it, like yesterday when he texted me good luck on my tests, like three years ago august when you were helping me iron out the wrinkles, thanks for not giving up on me. Thanks for loving me, and let me love you as a friend. Thanks for constantly being there. Even though I can't see you or hear you I know you're here helping me out. I hope I can be like you, and like Christ. I know you're a great missionary.

an eventful morning

So today I had a class at 8, so i got up at 7 took a shower and wrapped my foot in record time. Then I had 20 to be to class. So when I went to campus the other night of a chem review I found a lot of handicapped parking stalls in the david o mackay building parking lot. which is super close to the JSB and BNSN. So i had my first class in the JSB. So I got to the parking gate (the one where they let you drive west to south to east of campus) and all I had to do was show them my BYU id and my Handicap parking dangley thing. (thanks to the lady who told me it had to be registered in my name at the BYU police station) and they let me right on through. I got to park within a minute walk from my class instead having to make it there from the JKB/Alum building parking lot. and I snagged the last handicap stall.

on the way out of class I went to find my keys. no where to be found. So I walk back to the car and sure thing I left them in the ignition. Way to go me (thankfully I had turned the car off and locked to doors). and Since you can no longer call BYU police to jimmy your car, I called good ole dad. who brought me the spare key (which I had to convince him to bring then and not when my all classes got out later because I don't like carrying around all my books when I can lock them in the trunk and switch them out in between classes). So I got the key. needless to say it only took 3 months 10 days to lock myself out of the car.

first two weeks

I can't believe I've been at BYU for two weeks.  This is crazy. I love it. monday being labor day kinda threw me off schedule this week. and I can say I was late to my first class this morning (only by 2 minutes). but I was still late. I'm really excited for new beginning and foundations at college.
Tonight there is a tail gate party at the young men's presidents house because Marshall (a priest in my ward) is the quarter back for timpview and Bro. stroshine (young mn leader in the ward) is a coach at mountain view and the game is tonight. so we get to party then go to the game for free! :-) it's gonna be a good night.

Two more weeks of protection

So my feet get's to enjoy it's current residence of the lovely, smelly, ugly boot for another 2 weeks. it's healing pretty good though. except for last night I attempted to shave my legs and ended up cutting my right ankle bone, and it hurts, and has issues clotting so that is fun, oh and it stings like crazy. other then that.

Life is grand and I love my classes. I'm thinking of dropping my intro to life sciences class because it wasn't really what i was expecting it to be. so I'm going to drop that class now.

week 2 ready or not here I come

Tomorrow the second week of school starts. I'm kinda nervous. But i only have 3 classes tomorrow and it's also the first devotional since school started. I'm excited for the devotional every week especially because I can go early and get a good seat and because it's a great way to keep the spirit in your life and you get a new message and life help every week. I'm giving a talk on Sunday so hopefully I don't forget to write it. anyway it was a good weekend, and a math professor live literally in a house 30 feet from my garage door. life is great!!! Also it's the first laurel/priest lunch of the school year tomorrow. so stoked!!!

p.s. we beat university of Arizona 2-0. we made 21 or so shots at their goal and they made like 4 at our goal.

history

Apparently facebook lets you know what you're posts on facebook were exactly a year ago. And apparently I was cleaning my house cause my mom was coming home from the Hospital. It's been a great 3 years 5 months 27 days to keep you. Let's hope I can keep you a lot longer. 

Well 3 years 5 months 27 days ago my mom spent 31 days straight in the hospital. Half of the time they didn't know what was wrong with her. She's great and I love my mom. My sister was also in Turkey on a school trip and I practically lived at my friends house. She came home right before the Saturday morning or general conference of that April.  I love my MOM! She has helped me through so much! Later that year in September I lost someone who was close to me and one of the best examples I could have ever asked for. I've been so blessed. Are you counting your blessings, or are there too many to count? I hope you remember how blessed we are and how no matter what someone will always love us and be there for us.

Kind of an awkward conversation

So Today my Y group was meeting at the Legends Grill at the student athlete building for lunch. So I had to go to the bathroom. After I ordered my Y group leader was explaining how to get there. So I went through a door that connects to Legacy Hall (the place where all the Olympians who went to BYU stuff is), and I walked where I thought she said the bathroom is.  I wasn't quite sure. So I stopped and there were these two men talking to the receptionist. I had a hard time hearing what they were saying to me and such. But I turned and looked at them and the man on the left was like "what happened to your foot?"
I reply "I had foot surgery."
I thought his next question was "how long ago" so I replied "about three weeks ago"
but I think his (now the man on the left) question was "why'd you have foot surgery?" and so I said "I had a bunion."
The Man on the right asked me if I played sports.
I said, "yes."
He says "what do you play."
I say "soccer"  Then started saying something about if the team was gonna let me play tonight.
"I said I'm not on the team, but I came to a camp here in the summer."
He says "how long have you been playing soccer?"
I said, "I started in may when my school needed a goalie, and I played a couple girls games."
He asked If I had been on my high school team. I said, "the last month of high school"
He started telling me this story about a man who came to BYU (from a third world country) I think, and he said when he showed up he didn't even know how to put the football pads on.  He turned into a fantastic player. He then said "You're gonna be one of those people who does that."
He asked me a couple more questions about high school and teams. Then for some reason I said, "I started ballet when I was 12 by the time I was fifteen I was a soloist."
Then he told me again, "you're gonna be one of those players that comes out and never did it in high school."
And I said, "maybe, (looking down kinda biting my lip. I was avoiding eye contact.)" and he looks me directly in the eyes and says "YES (with confidence, and that look when someone believes in you." and I looked up for a second then back down and I looked up again towards his direction then in his eyes and I said, "yes."
He kind of chuckled , with the man on the left and the woman at the desk. We continued talking for a couple minutes.
The man on the left asked me my name. I said, proudly(looking at them both in the eyes)" Sam Roan, (I had to say it twice then spell it.) he asked where I was from, I said, "Provo."
I don't remember much else of what he said. I said," It was nice to meet you." When we were done talking, and as I returned to the legends girl, I heard them say "It was nice to meet you too(with excitement)!"
Needless to say I never found the bathroom, and he might never know why I was in the hall, and I might never know why we both said the things we did. But It was a confidence builder that a complete stranger looks you directly in the eyes, with faith, love, hope, encouragement and tells you "you're going to be great."I think he also said something about making the team (meaning BYU team.) But I don't know How I'll be that good. I don't want to doubt myself but I don't want to disappoint people (especially him or myself). I don't know what this all means. But some reason those things were meant to be said.

kinda funny that I just opened my email and a scripture from my peer mentor is  John 4:18: "There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear." There is another scripture about fear that I like don't know where it is. I also don't know who the two men that I met his afternoon were. But I will find out.

Almost weekend

With all this school and stuff my adrenaline has been pumping, so when I stop for a second I am reminded how tired I could get. It's only the first week. Maybe it's all the walking and healing. I don't know. All I know it that I LOVE it here. Here are some pictures courtesy of Google of campus.

It's it gorgeous!! I think so. School is great. I have 2 classes left today, and 3 classes tomorrow then it's the weekend and I don't have that much homework this weekend (I'm sure that will change). But I licked out on having professors that like to make sure you know how to do what they are teaching without giving you like a billion problems to practice for homework.

I'm really glad that there are soccer games about twice a week because it is my designated "break" time, to relax and stuff. Anyways there's a home game tomorrow vs. Cal State Fullerton. I'm excited for the weekend. Tomorrow my Y-group/Mentor group is getting together for lunch so that will be fun.